The One

bring back o bring back

had an awesome thanksgiving cgm. fun, laughter, songs, voices filled the seemingly small function room.


many many thoughts still went running through my head on the way home.
One thing i need to find back ASAP is the ability to put my emotions into words. This year's thanksgiving is so so different for me. perhaps it's the mass setting. but i reckoned that even if it was in a cg setting, i might still stare into a person's face and smile and not know what to say. today, i missed jolina, i missed nic, i missed nat, and i missed faith. nice one.

thank you eldad for teaching me much, showing me much and being the daring one to bare your heart when the time is right.

thank you mingjie for having that subtle but amazing presence and concern.

thank you nic for being ever so ready to volunteer and giving your all for anyone but yourself.

thank you peace for being there and supportig through the rights and wrongs.

thank you zhiling, jessalyn, jol and za for being the important ppl in my life regardless whether i am still playing a role as a cgi in your life. but i want to let you know i just wanna get to know you, with no strings attached.




on the way home, the image of the scar on my stomach when it was still 'fresh' (ewww) flashed across my mind. 2006. After fighting against PO for months. After band practice. When all took place and the 3 girls reached expo. i was shivering in pain and fear. fear not that i will get infection or whatsnot, but fear that faith will want me to go home, fear that i will not make it to the session, fear that when i get home, i won't get to go for svc again. that feeling, that emotion, that faith, that determination, that divine strength.


i MUST find it back.









i dont know if i'm on the right track
to look back
and hoping eagerly to find them back

well, remember Lot's wife
remember?

posted by Judith Toh Rui Xuan @ 1:09 AM